Hello everyone,
I figured that I would not start writing on this blog until I began the MFA program, which officially starts on June 9. However, I felt it would be a disservice to not share the nerves that have preemptively begun to envelop me, especially since they are related to school.
I took a look at my first class, which happens to be MFA-505: Introduction to Online MFA, and while I was not immediately stricken with nerves upon viewing its curriculum, I did start to feel a sense of doubt when I began to read up on the later parts of the program, during which time I will be required to work with an instructor to create a solid plan for the MFA thesis, otherwise known as the "MFA Novel."
You would think that this wouldn't bother me as much as it does, but as of now, I am working through a series of emotions, mainly being: the impostor syndrome that I imagined would come at some point, but which I hadn't expected would occur before the program actually began.
I know I shouldn't be dwelling on the what ifs or what will happens, especially since I haven't actively started school yet. Truth be told: I have been dealing with feelings of doubt since the flood that struck my previous home in the Rio Grande Valley in March (you can read more about that on my main blog on my website here.) My life was completely upended by the 100-year flood event; and while I know that I am still acclimating to life in Idaho, where I was born and where I grew up, I still feel a certain hesitation in returning to school.
I am, however, telling myself that I was accepted for a reason. I know I have the technical capabilities to write a good story. I am aware of the fact that MFA programs are historically hard to get into, and that they do not accept everyone. Above all, I am proud that I was accepted into this program.
While I know the days ahead are likely going to be filled with more anxiety, I have faith in the way Southern New Hampshire University structures its courses, as well as in the instructors they hire to teach its programs. I just have to continue reminding myself that I made it to this point for a reason, and I know it's to continue pushing myself forward.
— Kody Boye
